Well, I never thought I’d get into this kind of thing, blogging, but here I am doing just that… Who knew?  Certainly not me.

Now that I’m here writing away, just what shall I say?  Well, I have so many things that I can ramble on and on about, but we’ll start simply, with a little something about me. 

I’m a young woman in her 40’s, which are the new 20’s if you didn’t already know.  Any ways, I am quite happy with the way my life is.  There are a lot of exciting things happening with my family and me right now, even in the midst of some very bad things.  It’s quite amazing how life’s path can change in an instant and where it brings you is so far from where you were that you’re in disbelief.  Well, that’s me.  That’s where I am.  That’s how I feel.  Enough of that. 

Moving on… I come from a family of all girls, 7 of us to be exact, all different and extremely unique.  We are very strong willed and independent.  Unfortunately, we are not very close.  One has bowed out of all our lives completely – oh well.  Can’t force yourself on someone who doesn’t want you there.  Right?  That’s what I think too. 

Again, moving on… Our Mom has been troubled most of her life, well up until she met the most wonderful man, for her.  He changed her.  She is a completely different person today than she was when she was raising us.  I know, that seems like a DUH thing to say, considering we’re all grown up and she has been able to move on too.  But, truly, she is a changed woman.  She had a very painful childhood and is still hurting from those experiences; we felt her pain in our childhoods too and that has caused most of us to keep her in the very outer circle of our lives, an unfortunate and vicious cycle if you ask me.  But, she has grown, become gracious and loving and open to us letting her back in, to love her.  She has forgiven herself for her mistakes and us for our unwillingness to let her in.  But, I believe it will happen, maybe slowly over time, but it will.  They will see, as I have, that she is better and open and forgiving. 

But, that lesson came at a huge price, she lost her most wonderful man, Ed.  He was a blessing to us all, he changed even me.  No, I didn’t spend a great deal of time with them during their life together, but when I did, I felt it big.  He made a big impact on me and I am so thankful for him for that.  He showed us true grace, how to be gracious, even in the face of death, and kindness and love and joy and tenderness.  He was an amazing man and I am truly thankful to have had the pleasure of knowing him and receiving his love.  Miss you terribly Ed!

This is much harder to do than I anticipated.  And, there is so much more to write.  But, it is late and my children are waiting for me to tuck them in; I have not put them first since they were very young and so my priorities must change.  And, my husband is next in line after them. 

That said, I’m off.   But, don’t you worry, I’ll be back.  This story shall continue…